Noticing...

I noticed that after I did some major energy work while being half-asleep (I think), everyone in my family seemed to be a little...perkier. It was kind of odd to see my family in such a better mood. Notice that I don't say "good" because they usually are unhappy. 

Brushed

So last night while I was falling asleep, I kept thinking of a number of things: this odd sense of restlessness that always seems to grow inside of me throughout the years, the longing for something catalytic to happen, and about the Fae. 

As I was just about to fall asleep. Something brushed against my face again as I heard it buzz away. I was again startled. I looked around seeing no one there. This has been the second time this happened while I'm sleeping. I noted that I left my window open that night. The buzzing sensation always seemed to towards the window from where I sleep. In the past there have been times that I have felt something brush up against me when it seemed like no one is really there. 

I did feel like I wasn't really alone last night. Like there was another presence in the room that I cannot see. I wish could see them directly. I've only seen little lights, and a glowing yellow butterfly at the corner of my eye when I was outside once, and moving blurs. 

the White Bird

On Friday, I saw a white bird flying around above my car while I was driving. I think my mind was racing. Very odd. I kept asking myself "is that a dove? Or just a white pidgeon? Or some random white bird? It's gotta be some sign otherwise I wouldn't be searching my mind for this. What's the message?" Eventually I got the idea that white birds mean purity and peace. I felt a lot better afterwards for some reason. It's nice to have some peace of mind. I'd like to think of it as some message. 

Sleep

I am beginning to think that I am being watched while I sleep. Mainly because I keep having vivid dreams during a certain part of the day. I don't think I'm being watched every time I'm sleeping. I need to know when I'm dreaming or when I'm really wake and I need to develop stronger abilities to communicate with those from the Otherworld. I know that they are not just going to come up to me straight on and start talking to me anytime soon. It just feels nice to be guided by them every once in a while. 


Perhaps I need to show more effort into energy healing. I just need to be more consistent in interaction. I don't even really know who my spirit guide is accept maybe Eli, an old friend I have not seen in years now. I need to learn how to defend myself from being attacked both physically and mentally. 


During Halloween night, I dreamed of a vampire in giant bat form trying to climb up a hotel building I was in. I was to stay away from open windows and doors. The giant bat seemed very weak and tired and needed food  right away. I didn't like the idea of being food myself. There was a part in the dream where I was building wings that I was to test out from atop a skyscraper. I haven't had a dream like that on Halloween night since high school. 


It's Fall season now, I love fall season. I just hope it doesn't get too cold outside.